An acronym poem

Hello there,

I have found a poem from 2011, which I would like to share with you. It's an acronym poem, ie. it starts with capital letters and if you read them from top to bottom, it will tell you the title of the poem ;) I hope you'll enjoy it. It's been a while since I've posted any poems.

(S)somehow it's difficult to find out,

(H)ow she has died that fateful night.

(E)ndless conspiracy, lots of doubts

(W)hy did she have to loose that fight?

(A)ll that we know is half true

(S)secrets are left under the ground

(K)nocking silently to get through

(I)n the hope to be found.

(L)ots of evidence is still hidden,

(L)eft in the castle although -

(E)ven to get it is forbidden

(D)Diana's truth we'll never know …

By Sandra Stolnik

- 2011 -

Born to write

I have found a purpose for my life. It's to write. I am not born to just live.. but also to write. No one is like me, I'm born once and no one can be like me! As long as I have my mind and my sanity, I'll keep writing.

Yesterday I went cycling after work all the way to this place here, by the river. I hope this spot will look the same way in 100 years. I'll pray that it won't change. I cannot explain why it is this place I get most of my ideas. It is the water, the sound of the water .. I can listen to it, stare and stare and get lost in my own world. It's God's divine energy which is flowing here.

Salzburg is beautiful, it has a busy city life, crowded streets in the Old Town but also places like this one. I go there and can totally shut off from the rest of the world. They are sometimes other people who come as well, but if you really allow it, you can shut off yourself from everyone. They will not bother you, if you are deeply lost in your own thoughts.

Hope you had a great day too! Today on the other hand, it's a little rainy and wet. Here and there the sun comes out but it's not like yesterday.

Sandra

She Can't Replace Me ⎜POEM

Hello everyone!

Weekend is here! Hopefully the good vibes will stay.

Here is a poem from 2010 but I put it on one of my latest photos from my China trip. I chose this photo as it somehow to me it seems to fit .. for this particular poem. This definitely not an easy topic to discuss or to think about .. "what if" or "one day..." I don't know if I were put in such a situation... but the feelings for this poem came and I had to write it down. The outcome hopefully gives families a bit of hope. Sometimes changes are good! No matter how painful some may be, we should always look at it.. as a new lesson!

BUT this is of course easy to say but not easy to put it into practice. Other times changes are devastating, really hard to accept so a situation. It has a lot to do with the person and their attitude.

If they are open to changes then things will definitely go better, rather than seeing it negative.

Hope this post makes somehow sense, but more importantly enjoy my poem! :)

Nib holder with 3 nibs

Hello!!! :)))

I went to the stationery shop today and I found this nib holder which had three nibs to change. Immediately I grabbed it because I have been looking for such a pen for months on ebay ... when I saw it there, I thought "at the right time, at the right place" :))

For some time I thought these nibs are difficult to use.. but on the contrary.. I was surprised to see how smooth I can write with it and I love that it writes a little "thick", if you know what I mean?

I have to practice a bit with this new nib because at some point it left me a stain on my paper but it wasn't a bit deal. I don't mind. It makes writing more fun.

I have friends who have never written anything with a fountain pen or with an ink and they are surprised when you tell them that you write with ink only. It's the feeling that you get when you move your pen. A biro cannot give you such moments of stillness. Ink doesn't last forever, I am aware of it but this doesn't mean I cannot write ink. I try to use qualitative ink, such as Parker Quink, to make the pages last a bit longer before they completely fade....

Here is my poem if you didn't get the chance to read it in my video on the top.

Thank you for reading! I know it has been a while.. I need a better time management with everything here... More soon! :)

A mixed journal

Hi there,

It's been a busy week, no time for writing blogs.. but I'm here today. After two weeks of journaling with a fountain pen, I made a recap so far... and can tell you that it's been really challenging for me. This is just not the right thing. To write poetry with a fountain pen is fine but journaling, just takes ages.... and I cannot slow down my thoughts so I can keep up with them. That's why I just decided to quit, not entirely but just to go back to my laptop. (I hope that makes sense)

Here's my journal

It's a lot easier this way. I cannot entirely give up to "type". So anyhow, don't want to bore you. I made up my mind and it's FINAL!!! and I am not ashamed to say I still journal!!! Life is too short not to write about meaningful moments good or bad, doesn't matter. You learn from mistakes!

Thanks for reading!
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Back to journaling // old journals

my notebook for poetry

Hello there!!

It's been a while ... I caught a cold and am stuck at home. It's getting better though but due to all the medication that I have to take my emotional well-being is totally turned upside down... I feel really blah ... not really myself. I'm still coughing but the fever went away.

This year is almost over. It's time to recap it and try to make things better next year. As with writing, .. I'll have to make a change. I've been journaling for more than 3 years on my computer and I think I just have enough of it although it's great because I type fast and I can almost keep up with my thoughts. However a journal on the computer is not so personal. I wrote in detail, very much, outlining almost everything which is a good practice if you want to write a book, a novel one day. It's really a great practice. Though it's not appealing to me anymore. I need a change and twenty-twelve stands for a big change, something is going to happen, either good or bad.

I had a look at my old notebook which I started back in 2009. I wrote so many poems inside but still have more more pages are left to complete this notebook. Though I stopped because I couldn't keep up with it anymore. I wrote more poems that it was hard to write them inside, once they were done. I always use separate sheets from another notebook where I write my poems, then once I'm done I rewrite them into this notebook here. I tired various ink colors, different types of pens, gel pencils etc. Some pages are barely readable because I used a light color for my fountain pen. So today I took my fountain pen and rewrote that poem again so I can read it again one day.

rewritten with a new dark green ink

You see all of a sudden the color is better. You probably wonder why I would like to journal with a fountain pen again when the pages fade away slowly. Not all the pages faded away, it depends on which color you chose but they will eventually one day so I took care of it. There's this Parker Quink Ink Black which has a long durability compared to other inks. With this one I will start to journal as soon as the clock strikes 01/01/2012 :) I'm yet sure if I will really do it but it's a thought.

I have more then 10 years of writing experience with a fountain pen, I know what works and not. Even though I journal with my computer I still keep writing with a fountain pen, mostly poetry or just taking notes. Some of my old journals are still in good shape, still readable except that my handwriting was really really really ugly. I cannot write nice with a biro, it just doesn't work.

Here you can see some of my old journals from 1998. I used to write with a biro mainly... but also from time to time with a fountain pen but at that time I didn't use a fountain pen very often. When I look back, it's sweet to see my little self there on these pages.

old journal 1998, translation: "I think my guinea pig got
vermin or an infection. Loses hair."

This was quite a funny entry. Haha! :-) I don't even remember that anymore. My journals were very short, one page for one day and I labeled them in a different way, either to write on the typewriter the date and stick that paper to this page or to write the date on my page directly. I always tried out different things.

"I went outside to play with the snow. Tomorrow I'll go.."

 I think I was often in a hurry that I didn't write properly, I often scribbled just a few lines just enough to remember it the next day. I learned from all this. Now my journals are different. With now I mean as of today 2011. I write about other things, not whom I used to call etc. but it's still funny to read those old entries.

"Sunday 3rd Advent, called my granny w/ my dad.

I'm thinking whether I ..."

Each page was different. My handwriting has changed with the years and got better. Thank God!!!! :-) You can see it on the first picture one of my latest poems in 2009. See?? Yeah much better! :-) Though I can still write very ugly, usually when I'm taking notes very quickly like in poetry writing before they disappear, then later during the day I look back and work on the poem. Or I get an inspiration and the poem is there within 20 minutes or 30 minutes (max.) That's why I love this sudden burst of inspiration, it doesn't ask to come it just arrives and you better make the best of it and take notes or inspiration will go away and find someone else!

Thank you for reading!!